Lonely

[crowwitch]

OK, this is probably meaningless and I'll take it all back once the mood has passed, but I'm feeling really depressed and lonely right now.

Let me set the stage:

I was getting off the bus about an hour ago and I stepped badly and my ankle gave out, this caused me to fall onto my other ankle and wrench it as well, so I crashed to the sidewalk with two very badly sprained ankles.

I was sitting on the bench at the bus stop, in a great amount of pain, unable to walk the blocks back to my house and just started crying. I just felt so helpless and frustrated and alone.

I can't seem to shake this mood right now. I can't seem to shake the feeling of a lack of close, personal friendships. The people that I see on a dayly basis, the people I'm in class with, work with in rehearsals and stuff are people that I like, but I feel a really need for close, emotionally intimate relationships. And the people I always counted as my nearest and dearest don't seem that interested in me anymore. They're all far closer to other people than to me.

I just feel so friendless.

P.S. Disclaimer: To my friends, I apologize. To you I'm sure I sound really self absorbed and needy right now. I think I'm just shaken up from the fall and it's the pain talking. I'll probably regret this post later.

I just SOOOO feel the need for contact and comfort from another human being (And not one who's biologically predisposed to care about me IE Family) right now. And I don't feel like I have a place to get it.

Comments

Cheer up!

[talamh-sidhe.livejournal.com]

Hey girl, sorry to hear that you're feeling down. I understand what you mean though, I'm feeling a little (stranded? suspended? lonely?) right now as well.. As fun as it is living in the "big city", I have yet to meet people to hang around with on a regular basis. I have no desire to call Alecia, for obvious reasons, and I seem to have lost touch with Kristina, so all I've got is my hubby to hang around with. Cheer up though, I'm coming to visit! I'll be in town next weekend. Hopefully we can all get together sometime for coffee or whatever... in the meantime, just sing the Golden Girls theme to yourself a couple times and picture Mylar & the girls.. that'll cheer you up! ;)

and one more thing

[talamh-sidhe.livejournal.com]

if I haven't cheered you up already:

Long Live the Goats!

Oh, Shawa...

Say I were a woman, say that bad girl, Nunowna, and I were to show you my thigh.. Nunowna's thigh!

See, now you're smiling, aren't you? :)

Thanx

[darlingfreak.livejournal.com]

I do feel better. I think it's just the pain talking. Things aren't that bad, I was just hurt and shaken, and being hurt and shaken and ALONE just got to me for a little while. I'm calm now. I've had some ice on my ankles and they don't look as swolen. My knee is turning purple now though. I didn't even know I fell on it.

I'm looking forward to seeing you! We absolutely must find something fabulous to do.